Resignation

When I wrote the title of this post, it reminded me of a love poem that I used to like in high school by the same name: Resignation, by Nikki Giovanni. I was going to cut and paste the whole thing here, but turns out it features some 387 words, so I’ll just share this relevant excerpt from the last stanza:

I love you
because you made me
want to love you
more than I love my privacy
my freedom, my commitments
and responsibilities
I love you ’cause I changed my life
to love you

And so I have done the same and a life change is upon our family. I resigned from my full-time “office” job this week.

Nikki’s 387-word love poem is written to a lover, no doubt, but as she has resigned in acquiescence to love — I have resigned to full-time mommyhood, a role of love that I do not take lightly. It has been on my heart for some time – this work/life balance thing – and any reader of this blog knows so.

I feel lucky to have the opportunity to focus more on my family. I feel sad to leave coworkers who often feel like family. I feel excited to see what God has in store for us — but mostly, I just feel blessed.

As I was ending this post, I stumbled across the below quote — a status message on my Facebook newsfeed. Being a woman requires many hats to be worn, and I am ready to spend more time wearing my favorite.

“How can it be a large career to tell other people’s children about the Rule of Three, and a small career to tell one’s own children about the universe? How can it be broad to be the same thing to everyone, and narrow to be everything to someone? No. A woman’s function is laborious, but because it is gigantic, not because it is minute. I will pity Mrs. Jones for the hugeness of her task; I will never pity her for its smallness.”
? G.K. Chesterton

8 Comments

  1. That poem is very profound and could be applied to so many situations in life. Good luck with your new change in life, you’ll never regret it even if you feel tired and wrung out from time to time. When I first made that transition, on my tired days I used tonremind myself that there were so many days at work I was longing for life at home with my babies, never a day at home I was longing to be at work away from them!! What date is baby due?

  2. Jill

    Lauren, congratulations! It is always difficult to make changes, but to do God’s will in your life will bring joy and peace. You and Matt amaze me. Keep up the awesome job you are doing!

  3. Mary

    Congratulations! You and your children are Blessed to have this opportunity. I’m sure God has plenty of other “work” planned for you. Enjoy!

  4. Suzi

    As a quiet indulger of all you write, I must admit I did not read the poem! I skimmed until I read what I have been waiting to come across the page! You will be in my prayers. As Mom who stays home, schools from home and runs (2) businesses: WELCOME…

  5. Exciting and a blessing, indeed. This can’t have been an easy decision to make, but then, no path is ‘easy’, is it? Wishing you all the best as you settle into this new period in your family’s journey :-)

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